Here's the Thing...

I think I need to clear something up here...Well, actually, I really don't need to, but I need a blog post and I guess you're just gonna have to deal with it. (Haha. I'm so sweet.)

So recently I've seen on Pinterest and other blogs I've read and just all over the place about people being introverts and extroverts--"extroverts" being people that like to socialize in big crowds, and "introverts" being people who enjoy one-on-one socialization.

Here's the thing: I'm neither.

And before you say it: no, I'm not an ambivert, either. (That's a person who sometimes enjoys big crowds, and sometimes just likes being alone or with one person.)

You see, apparently, being anti-social and being an introvert are two completely different things. An introvert is a person willing to have meaningful conversations with people they know well, and actually enjoy it. An anti-social person is a person who doesn't enjoy human contact at all and tries to avoid any type of socialization with anyone at all times.

I'll let you guess which one of those I am.

Ooh, correct: anti-social.

Seriously, when I think about the fact that I actually have to talk to people, I roll my eyes and then spend the rest of the time trying to think up clever ways to avoid everyone. Literally everyone.

And, I know, everyone has "those days". But this is seriously every time I have to go somewhere to see people. I literally think, Ugh. People.

And when I do get tripped into actually having a conversation, I try to say as little as possible and find some way to end the conversation quickly as possible. Like, as quickly as possible.

Person: Hi.

Me: *smiles*

See how short that conversation was? Didn't even last a full second.

And that is pretty much how my brain works. Whenever I'm forced to leave the comfort of my home and go somewhere, I immediately lay out a game plan in my mind and come up with different ways to avoid anyone who might possibly try to socialize with me. I've been doing this for about three or four years, and I can proudly say that I've become a pro at avoiding socialization. It's become second nature for me, like instinct or something. Yeah, it's "unhealthy" and stuff like that, but meh.

So that's how I am. I'm friendly enough when I'm texting people, but when it comes to face-to-face socialization--whether it's multiple people or just one person--I freeze up, and turn a regular social gathering into a battle field--me against everyone. So I guess I can't whine about not having many friends--it's my own fault. But it's also just who I am.